The clock reads 2:55am and I am sitting at work feeling so frustrated; I feel like someone has punched me hard in the stomach and I want to punch someone back. I’m not a violent person but at this point I am feeling the need to punch, kick or scream at the top of my lungs. So, instead I will write and hope that alleviates some of the pressure.
Why am I so frustrated? Oh, that’s a long story and one I am not willing to write at this point, albeit to say school, work, children and my personal needs do not always mesh well. I am not keeping up with my schoolwork at this point – the readings are killing me and I can’t seem to catch up.
I took such good care of myself over winter break and truly felt that I could continue that into the new quarter, but alas, it has not happened that way. I am back to eating junk food, not exercising and gaining weight. My energy and motivation are both nil at this point. I feel overwhelmed and worn down and I have only been back in school for 3 weeks.
*sigh*
What’s a girl to do? Calgon, take me away.
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